A new year has come.

A new year has come.

I felt like buried deep in

Faculty discouraging me, people don't seem to understand

Felt waste of resources

But everyone is different

There's always a spark in the darkness

"My back-up system" always there supporting me

I wouldn't have make it through without them

I was waiting for so long

For a miracle to come

Everyone told me to be strong

Hold on and don't shed a tear

Through the darkness and good times

I knew I'd make it through

Thank you people.

Me is Monkey

I will not let you interfere my life

It's a tough year and I hadn't have a proper rest for a long time

I hope I make it through.

Pray that I could study smarter and harder this year!

And do not fear for failure!

彻底崩溃

我好累...

好像跌到山谷里了.

为什么会怎样?

爬不起来了...

不想动了. 好累...

4 months.

it's been 4 months since my last post.

failed my osce. scar has healed quite a bit. but it's a permanent scar.

be honest, i'm jealous that people having fun out there, laughing playing and i'm palpating stink venous foot. reading talley again and again. i'm frustrating, fighting inside me, but what can i do? nothing. the only thing that can cheer me now is counting down on days before i go have a break.

Am i actually walking on a path that suit me?

Stay calm.

This is a remainder to myself.

Stay calm. Do not do anything recklessly in response to your thoughtless emotions. Please take control of your emotion all the time, do not bring yourself into any troubles!

Stay a clear mind.

Be neutral. Do not judge according to what you see. Keep quiet!

Born.Again

Reborn to be stronger person.

This is YeeLin Lui, 26/07/10.

Control

I'm using my whole body energy to control my emotion!

I'm sooooo terrible, why?

I used up my energy to control my thinking over this friendship thing and now i got another problem arises because of my carelessness. Please don't fail me. I shouldn't use short form anymore, imagine that i used it in my report and submitted? so silly and funny when i found out.

Will i survive through this year? I have already got many wounds created since i came here, please dun cut indirectly me anymore, i can't take it...

Learning process is very tough. Learn to be alone, to be independent, to apply theory (forogotten during 8 weeks of holiday) in clinical settings, to speak, to act confidently, to overcome my exam fear, presentation fears, to be able to handle truth humanity, to cook, to survive...

I'm exhausted... Can i see a light to drive me to the right direction?

T_T

gen med

8 weeks of gen med comes to the end now.

very hectic life... stressful...

i was posted in respiratory unit for 8 weeks. i sticked to my team like glue.

my residence for the 8weeks: Dr sherman picardo. he is very nice, helped me check through my case reports, listened to my case presentation, taught me how to do ABG... never angry ... always say "that's good" haha ...

first 3 weeks i had this great 6th year with me. if wasn't him, i'll be sooo blur in the first few days.. really wanna thanks him, he is yang. very clever and nice guy... gave me a lot of private tute, like to teach...

then next 4 weeks was Joseph, another 6th year, he... er... doesn't like to talk ... doesn't really like to smile also... unlike yang... hmm... but he is very nice as well..

my first 3 weeks of reg was dr.sarah young. she talks like bullet train, mouth seldom move aahaha... very hard to get wat she said sometime, always smile! like to teach when she had time... she brought me to other wards to listen to murmur, clerk patient and then present to her...

then last 3 weeks i had dr. babu phillip as my reg. he is another awesome reg. he knows a lot but he speaks very softly that i couldn't hear wat he said and i dunno what he wants.. hahaa... and he likes to EAT! hahaha... he brought us, the whole team to northbridge for dinner...

thanks to the whole team, i like my respi life. although very busy, a lot to read, but it's quite good...

the first thing i learnt in my gen med was how to put on N95 face mask! hahaha ... taught by dr.sarah young. i think she was shocked, when i asked her: "how do u put this on?" hahahaaa....

besides that, i watched 3 bronchoscopies, one of that was done by my residence.

one intercostal tube drainage by my residence and babu.

Another thing i would want to emphasize here:

My new consultant: Dr. W said he hates this product soooooooooooooooooooooooo deeply!! haha... he said it is useless.... doesn't deliver medicine to the lung... Let me introduce u to this Diskus seretide:

Education Purpose (1)

This is Peripherally Inserted Central Catheter (PICC) line.

As you can see here, it is inserted through peripheral vein in the forearm and extending up to the SVC.

It is not staying in there more than 30 days.

This is Hickman Line- rather short line inserted through jugular vein.