What does this mean to me?
It means time is passing very fast and now i'm 20 year old and 25 days. Stepping my feet into semester 5 next year. Unpredictable partner medical school that I will be going.
Refresh back what had happened throughout this year...
Many sharp Peaks and Valleys in emotional graph if i were to draw it... just like the weather nowadays...
Most memorable events:
Foremost: I had this deepest valley in the beginning of this year. One of IMU gal used terribly rude and bad words to describe me. For about a month it affected me. This was not a good feelings, it mixed a lots of feelings in the 30days period. I did not know why and what had happened to her that she would want to put those phrases on me!
Slight increase in the market: when We ~9people joined the IM (infinity millers) for Klang Gate climb. Though I had to wake up at 3am something, i felt really good and refreshing after the climb and i got to know MORE people in this climb. Surprisingly, at first, i anticipated only 4-5 people would followed me to this climb but until I woke up most of my friends in my gang were following also. Haha... I was glad that they followed and enjoyed the journey!
Dropped into another valley: when exam result was out, unsatisfied with the result i got in this terrible month.
rapidly rise peak: ELECTIVE period!!! 10 people in our gang, in 2 cars we went from west to east, stopping at Taman Negara, Cherating, Terengganu and Redang Island. This was the happiest roadtrip i ever joined.
chaotic graph: when my hormonal was in imbalance and stress period.
slight down period: IMU cup. I had to face my flawS and training almost everyday.
Another peak: during this december, i have quite a number of peaks period and some down times also. First peak was during PH's b'day, the IMU gal asked for apologize from me. I was shocked after such a long time and she came.
Another peak: PD trip. I joined this trip which organised by another group of friends and without telling one of my buddy. Thus, I was hiding in Sorento here and there throughout the trip to PD. It was fun! LX, SY and SK were 3 very creative people who asked me to hide in the closet before my buddy opened it. This surprised event was the most memorable period for this year. Haha!!! After surprised her, she hitting everyone for not telling her. Haha!!! Then, they secretly put my name on the cake for b'day celebration. OMG, i was real blur... i didn't c my name!!!
Another high peak: DEC 2!!! waken up by housemates at 3 in the morning to played poker and drink beer, eat cake, dance...
Night time, we went OUG plaza eat vietnamese food. And i got a nike shirt from my gang, nike sock from KN and funny monkeys game from my housemates!!!
Two days later, another fren gave me a billabong sling bag!!! OMG!!!haha
Last week, my melaka fren gave me cute 'clinic'!
I received the most sms, wishes and gift i ever did in my life!
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Friday, November 28, 2008
Really surprised me!
I was really tired and sleepy when i received your msn called.
It indeed surprised me and i must say that i stared at your msn and i don't know what to type and had a mixture of lots of feelings: Happy of cause, now that i finally can let go this sorrow events, Sad, a little, cause its all misunderstandings (so, think and ask before you act), shock, unrealistic (caused it's been a while ago, i really hope that we can talk again, but i nvr expect that u'll apologized to me).
There's still an awful feeling toward you, i must say this. However, thanks for apologizing.
Stepping back and look at the sky.
It indeed surprised me and i must say that i stared at your msn and i don't know what to type and had a mixture of lots of feelings: Happy of cause, now that i finally can let go this sorrow events, Sad, a little, cause its all misunderstandings (so, think and ask before you act), shock, unrealistic (caused it's been a while ago, i really hope that we can talk again, but i nvr expect that u'll apologized to me).
There's still an awful feeling toward you, i must say this. However, thanks for apologizing.
Stepping back and look at the sky.
Friday, November 21, 2008
The biggest Liar i ever met is among us.
I hate liar and deadly kia-su people.
Z is the person i named and I tried to not to dislike Z but Z is taking for granted and I can't hold on the breathe anymore. Volcano is going to erupt, if residents surrounding did not evacuate immediately they will burn to death.
I wonder why on earth is this person so catty.
It's another version of Z in men among us. Others may not realized Z behaviors but i have enough of it. It's making me really MAD now!
My mom was the coolest person. I remember she anticipated this incident.
Do you know you are annoying?! Am i not making myself clear enough?!
Stop talking to me about studies!! IT"S HELL IRRITATING!! Stop following me! I won't disappear without photostat notes!! crazy!!! Stop opening your door like u wanna remove it, no wonder your door is going to spoil. Stop Stop Stop!!! No need to lock your god damn hell door as No one will wanna go in without knocking it because you are the only person will do that!!!
Z is the person i named and I tried to not to dislike Z but Z is taking for granted and I can't hold on the breathe anymore. Volcano is going to erupt, if residents surrounding did not evacuate immediately they will burn to death.
I wonder why on earth is this person so catty.
It's another version of Z in men among us. Others may not realized Z behaviors but i have enough of it. It's making me really MAD now!
My mom was the coolest person. I remember she anticipated this incident.
Do you know you are annoying?! Am i not making myself clear enough?!
Stop talking to me about studies!! IT"S HELL IRRITATING!! Stop following me! I won't disappear without photostat notes!! crazy!!! Stop opening your door like u wanna remove it, no wonder your door is going to spoil. Stop Stop Stop!!! No need to lock your god damn hell door as No one will wanna go in without knocking it because you are the only person will do that!!!
I hate horror movie!
Damn 'quarantine' stupid movie! makes me insomnia now!
Dun ever go to watch this darn movie!
it just like cloverfield, using that stupid dv to film this movie! ...
and then its god damn horrible storyline ...
aH!!!! i can't sleep!!!
Dun ever go to watch this darn movie!
it just like cloverfield, using that stupid dv to film this movie! ...
and then its god damn horrible storyline ...
aH!!!! i can't sleep!!!
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Human are complicated animal.
Every single things of human are complicated. So complicated that sometimes you can't use naked eyes to differentiate them. Why is it so?
Different people thinks differently. One perceives an event as correct but the other might perceives it as wrong or neutral opinion. Hmm...
So messy that sometimes it makes me really fed up to care and know too much about human. I figured out that keep things simple are way to make your life happier. Stop busy-body to know things that you are not supposed to know or is really none of your business.
Exp:
During exam time, I don't like people KEEP talking about studies and how much a person has studies or "Die, I think i can't finish my studies". You can complaint about it but not every minutes and seconds. It is good to relief stress by saying it out, but not keep on talking about it, it ended up with increase stress among people who are listening and your selves. Or maybe not to yourselves cause you might have finished it long time ago and just making fun to pretend that you haven't. Don't keep telling me these words! please! You do not know how much it annoyed me. It's already stressed that i almost threw out every night when i was studying. Additionally, you do not actually haven't finished your studies. You actually have finished it long time before i did. I know that okay, I'm not a fool. You studied every night till 3-4am then woke up the other morning at 7.30am, i know that and such a long hours of studies, you dared telling me u haven't finished? The way you acted when people said they haven't really finished already showed me you were actually lying. Please, you not actually a good actor. Though i don't want to know but my ears are too good to hear them or you all have problem with your ears to listen to them. I do not know.
It is a fault to be a good listener? I'm not piss off about it but I really have no idea why i can hear things you both can't. I DO NOT WANT to hear, and i just heard them! It's annoying to me! Don't think i'm so kepo that wanted to hear what you guys saying. Please, I'm not interested. It's loud and clear. *breath in deeply* Probably my room location or i'm too quiet inside here. Never mind, it doesn't matter at all.
Liar vs Honesty
Why Human lied? I just read a story book, do not know it's true or not. There was a studied in Europe, it said that average human lied 88000 lies in one's life and mostly are for sake of goodness. It is? I don't think so, so as the writer. So why do brain wants to lie? For other's goods? For avoidance of troubles? For own's sake? For money? For Kia-suness? To show off? For what?
For me, I lied to avoid troubles mostly and I usually will tell my mom about my lies, to my mom, i lied to prevent her worriment... i don't know, too many already.
Filial.
Parents, there are many kinds, some really cares their children, but some do not even bother.
If you parents do, please it is really killing me to know that children are not filial. I have really bad temper about this kinds of things. So, I avoid sometimes to know too much about what my brother doing. I can't stop my anger to scold him. But i don't want to have any lesions among us. Better to keep really quiet.
I met one case, A has DM and on dialysis. A's wife has stroke recently. A has 2 children, one in s'pore, the other in kl, working as lawyer. A n wife not staying with 2 children. When I talked about A's family, i could felt that A were in depressed and the tear almost dropping out from the lacrimal glands.
If a parents could bring you up as a lawyer, I have no reason why you can't repaid them by give them some love. The bond between parents and chilren are not REPAID, but it is a child's responsibility to take care of them, if you can't, at least call them or drive home every weekend to see them. Though it might be tiring or your parents asked you not to go back, but it is a HUMAN's must RESPONSIBLILITY to have it done. They worked so much in oldern to build a castle or a world for you so that you can study and become a professionalman. You don't just know how to use their money to build another BIGGER castle for your lover and not cared about their feelings! I HATE this. If you wanna build a bigger castle for your lover, please please please use ur own blood-worked money to get it. They have actually given you so much that more than a normal parents can afford and you still ask for more! What's in your mind you thinking. You don't even think of buying a massage machine for them. I haven't work, if i am, i will buy. You ask so many things from them, do you ever give them any? I feel really sorry to my parents, they sounded so sad when dad said they can't cook today and tomorrow. You always go out with your friends or fiance, care about them please. U are not foster by your fiance or friends. Everything u have is from your parents, not THEM. I do not say that you are wrong if u care about ur fiance and friends, i said you have to do it appropriately, put more time and efforts on what your parents' needs. You being really insensitive to them.
What's more to say?
Different people thinks differently. One perceives an event as correct but the other might perceives it as wrong or neutral opinion. Hmm...
So messy that sometimes it makes me really fed up to care and know too much about human. I figured out that keep things simple are way to make your life happier. Stop busy-body to know things that you are not supposed to know or is really none of your business.
Exp:
During exam time, I don't like people KEEP talking about studies and how much a person has studies or "Die, I think i can't finish my studies". You can complaint about it but not every minutes and seconds. It is good to relief stress by saying it out, but not keep on talking about it, it ended up with increase stress among people who are listening and your selves. Or maybe not to yourselves cause you might have finished it long time ago and just making fun to pretend that you haven't. Don't keep telling me these words! please! You do not know how much it annoyed me. It's already stressed that i almost threw out every night when i was studying. Additionally, you do not actually haven't finished your studies. You actually have finished it long time before i did. I know that okay, I'm not a fool. You studied every night till 3-4am then woke up the other morning at 7.30am, i know that and such a long hours of studies, you dared telling me u haven't finished? The way you acted when people said they haven't really finished already showed me you were actually lying. Please, you not actually a good actor. Though i don't want to know but my ears are too good to hear them or you all have problem with your ears to listen to them. I do not know.
It is a fault to be a good listener? I'm not piss off about it but I really have no idea why i can hear things you both can't. I DO NOT WANT to hear, and i just heard them! It's annoying to me! Don't think i'm so kepo that wanted to hear what you guys saying. Please, I'm not interested. It's loud and clear. *breath in deeply* Probably my room location or i'm too quiet inside here. Never mind, it doesn't matter at all.
Liar vs Honesty
Why Human lied? I just read a story book, do not know it's true or not. There was a studied in Europe, it said that average human lied 88000 lies in one's life and mostly are for sake of goodness. It is? I don't think so, so as the writer. So why do brain wants to lie? For other's goods? For avoidance of troubles? For own's sake? For money? For Kia-suness? To show off? For what?
For me, I lied to avoid troubles mostly and I usually will tell my mom about my lies, to my mom, i lied to prevent her worriment... i don't know, too many already.
Filial.
Parents, there are many kinds, some really cares their children, but some do not even bother.
If you parents do, please it is really killing me to know that children are not filial. I have really bad temper about this kinds of things. So, I avoid sometimes to know too much about what my brother doing. I can't stop my anger to scold him. But i don't want to have any lesions among us. Better to keep really quiet.
I met one case, A has DM and on dialysis. A's wife has stroke recently. A has 2 children, one in s'pore, the other in kl, working as lawyer. A n wife not staying with 2 children. When I talked about A's family, i could felt that A were in depressed and the tear almost dropping out from the lacrimal glands.
If a parents could bring you up as a lawyer, I have no reason why you can't repaid them by give them some love. The bond between parents and chilren are not REPAID, but it is a child's responsibility to take care of them, if you can't, at least call them or drive home every weekend to see them. Though it might be tiring or your parents asked you not to go back, but it is a HUMAN's must RESPONSIBLILITY to have it done. They worked so much in oldern to build a castle or a world for you so that you can study and become a professionalman. You don't just know how to use their money to build another BIGGER castle for your lover and not cared about their feelings! I HATE this. If you wanna build a bigger castle for your lover, please please please use ur own blood-worked money to get it. They have actually given you so much that more than a normal parents can afford and you still ask for more! What's in your mind you thinking. You don't even think of buying a massage machine for them. I haven't work, if i am, i will buy. You ask so many things from them, do you ever give them any? I feel really sorry to my parents, they sounded so sad when dad said they can't cook today and tomorrow. You always go out with your friends or fiance, care about them please. U are not foster by your fiance or friends. Everything u have is from your parents, not THEM. I do not say that you are wrong if u care about ur fiance and friends, i said you have to do it appropriately, put more time and efforts on what your parents' needs. You being really insensitive to them.
What's more to say?
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Late night.
I scolded one guy 3 days ago. Not sure it was a serious quarrel cause along the process I was help by friends. They just help me in forming sentences caused i was shocked and emptiness strike me that time, i did not expect to receive that message from him. I spilled out every single of my feelings... though I know is cruel but it reached a stage where I really could not hold my emotions.
His first ques: 'Did i ever think about his feelings?'
(I did not feel angry, i just had a funny feeling about this ridiculous ques. Really it is amazing that he did come out with this ques. Did he process this question before he sms me? Hmm... maybe he was really sleepy. I emphasized it many thousand times that we ARE just FRIENDS, even if the best and most important friends, i will never say this to him/her just because of 2 idiotic sms replies. OMG! Friends will not feel sad or so deeply disappointed about his/her another friend not replying his messages. The first message, I admit that i purposely do not wanted to reply. Cause we were going to play basketball in 15mins time, why should I reply if we were going to meet in a short while? But very disappointedly, u complaint and give me that responds.
Feeling is a strangest thing in human. I can not control it, when i said NO for two times, the most is three times, i really mean it. Please, do not ever forced me or test my patience too many times, I'll get damn fed up. What's wrong with being just friends? Friends are less complicated as i had told u earlier. But the way u act after i told u did not make any different as before. Well i should not say that because u did reduce the following me part. U can changed anything but the feeling will be there forever, and my answer still no. And do not compared u with ur friends, is their fate to have the chance to be with their gf.
Haiz... I do not know what am i writing now...
Do u ever know u r forcing me every second? Please ask someone for opinion, okay? It's not working for long run in future.
U asked me to tell u things that u did that will disappoint me. Oh god! what should i say? I was shock again by ur answer. Well, first, I never tell people their bad things directly as i think they r just friend, tolerate it or just leave for the sake of peace. Unless hmm.... the person really don't mind or it reaches the threshold where my feelings overtake my control. I usually forgive them after I wake up from a long sleep. Then, I'm not a person who knows how to control feelings, so if i get mad, i'll just hmm.... this will sound crazy... cry or break pens or bad words coming out or shut up with shit faced... and then, the person i scolded will get sad or guilt... i hate those feelings myself, so, i do not really like them to come around me...
Back to the ques u first sms me. I think about ur feelings okay! seriously but think it as a way in friendship. So, i did not scold u...
Do u know that everytime u put there in ur pm saying how sad i made u ... that's really bad for me u know... U rmb the 'insensitive piece of shit' story... i became quite sensitive after that... but i did not feel any guilt until friends surrounding keep saying that it was my fault again... It's really annoying when i did nothing and i have to feel guilt... yer!! this is kinda forcing u know? forcing me to talk to u.. forcing me to become ur friends or sms u or wat '!!!!! what the hack!!!
such a simple role 'friend' and u make it so complicated .... as if i was ur gf whom required to care ur feeling every seconds and reply ur sms every second... COME ON! I SAID NO... being friends u still request for so many things... Please talk to ur housemates or someone else about ur problem. I do not want to continue as i'm still mad and i need time before we can actually talk again... I'm really exhausting... hopefully after this 'window period' u'll find out ur mistakes and not changed it because of me but for ur own sake.
Anyway, sorry for being straight to u, i dun feel good either...
His first ques: 'Did i ever think about his feelings?'
(I did not feel angry, i just had a funny feeling about this ridiculous ques. Really it is amazing that he did come out with this ques. Did he process this question before he sms me? Hmm... maybe he was really sleepy. I emphasized it many thousand times that we ARE just FRIENDS, even if the best and most important friends, i will never say this to him/her just because of 2 idiotic sms replies. OMG! Friends will not feel sad or so deeply disappointed about his/her another friend not replying his messages. The first message, I admit that i purposely do not wanted to reply. Cause we were going to play basketball in 15mins time, why should I reply if we were going to meet in a short while? But very disappointedly, u complaint and give me that responds.
Feeling is a strangest thing in human. I can not control it, when i said NO for two times, the most is three times, i really mean it. Please, do not ever forced me or test my patience too many times, I'll get damn fed up. What's wrong with being just friends? Friends are less complicated as i had told u earlier. But the way u act after i told u did not make any different as before. Well i should not say that because u did reduce the following me part. U can changed anything but the feeling will be there forever, and my answer still no. And do not compared u with ur friends, is their fate to have the chance to be with their gf.
Haiz... I do not know what am i writing now...
Do u ever know u r forcing me every second? Please ask someone for opinion, okay? It's not working for long run in future.
U asked me to tell u things that u did that will disappoint me. Oh god! what should i say? I was shock again by ur answer. Well, first, I never tell people their bad things directly as i think they r just friend, tolerate it or just leave for the sake of peace. Unless hmm.... the person really don't mind or it reaches the threshold where my feelings overtake my control. I usually forgive them after I wake up from a long sleep. Then, I'm not a person who knows how to control feelings, so if i get mad, i'll just hmm.... this will sound crazy... cry or break pens or bad words coming out or shut up with shit faced... and then, the person i scolded will get sad or guilt... i hate those feelings myself, so, i do not really like them to come around me...
Back to the ques u first sms me. I think about ur feelings okay! seriously but think it as a way in friendship. So, i did not scold u...
Do u know that everytime u put there in ur pm saying how sad i made u ... that's really bad for me u know... U rmb the 'insensitive piece of shit' story... i became quite sensitive after that... but i did not feel any guilt until friends surrounding keep saying that it was my fault again... It's really annoying when i did nothing and i have to feel guilt... yer!! this is kinda forcing u know? forcing me to talk to u.. forcing me to become ur friends or sms u or wat '!!!!! what the hack!!!
such a simple role 'friend' and u make it so complicated .... as if i was ur gf whom required to care ur feeling every seconds and reply ur sms every second... COME ON! I SAID NO... being friends u still request for so many things... Please talk to ur housemates or someone else about ur problem. I do not want to continue as i'm still mad and i need time before we can actually talk again... I'm really exhausting... hopefully after this 'window period' u'll find out ur mistakes and not changed it because of me but for ur own sake.
Anyway, sorry for being straight to u, i dun feel good either...
Thursday, July 24, 2008
I am too over.
Woke up this morning at 7.00am.
Brushed my tooth.
Glimpse at my parent's room, oops, their luggage wasn't there.
I asked my mom in a sleepy voice, "Are we going today?"
Shocking expression in my mom face "Yes".
My mind sudden blank and I was thinking, "What the... ? I don't even know i'm going travel today."
Last second packed my stuffs and went to Muar with them.
Brushed my tooth.
Glimpse at my parent's room, oops, their luggage wasn't there.
I asked my mom in a sleepy voice, "Are we going today?"
Shocking expression in my mom face "Yes".
My mind sudden blank and I was thinking, "What the... ? I don't even know i'm going travel today."
Last second packed my stuffs and went to Muar with them.
Monday, July 21, 2008
经典
"平凡沒什麼不好，平凡才最有力量！"
"每一個baby都是上帝牽著手帶到這個世界上來的，沒有任何一個是意外。"
"幸福如履薄冰"
"機會就像小偷，來得時候不經意，等走了後，才知道損失慘重! "
"我會證明給你看，真心去對待一個人，是不需要有條件的。"
"每一個baby都是上帝牽著手帶到這個世界上來的，沒有任何一個是意外。"
"幸福如履薄冰"
"機會就像小偷，來得時候不經意，等走了後，才知道損失慘重! "
"我會證明給你看，真心去對待一個人，是不需要有條件的。"
Monday, June 30, 2008
I wonder where is my friend gone.
"A" will be the person for this story.
Personally, I feel sad and desperate.
A has changed from a caring, hardworking, helpful and diligent person to someone I couldn't imagine.
What happen? How come that happened and make you changed so much? Why?
I been trusting you so much and you changed in the meantime as well, to someone I can't believe anymore. I wish I was wrong... God, please don't change this good person.
I'm having a day from hell... have a temptation to scream now!
"Don't tell your problems to people: eighty percent don't care; and the other twenty percent are glad you have them. "
- Lou Holtz (I extract this sentence from a desperate house flower picture i like)
Personally, I feel sad and desperate.
A has changed from a caring, hardworking, helpful and diligent person to someone I couldn't imagine.
What happen? How come that happened and make you changed so much? Why?
I been trusting you so much and you changed in the meantime as well, to someone I can't believe anymore. I wish I was wrong... God, please don't change this good person.
I'm having a day from hell... have a temptation to scream now!
"Don't tell your problems to people: eighty percent don't care; and the other twenty percent are glad you have them. "
- Lou Holtz (I extract this sentence from a desperate house flower picture i like)
Apologize.
This semester elective will be doing at Taman Negara and Pulau Redang. This trip started on Wednesday and hopefully will be back by next Wednesday. 3 days at Taman Negara and 3 days at Pulau Redang. Transport in these 7 days is cars. Guys will have to drive all the way. This is the part which makes my mom mad at me. I know she is worried. I understand and expected that I’ll get scolded once she knew. I, myself, not really agree with these because she will angry but I can’t do anything, some of them insisted to drive for some reasons that I wouldn’t want to know.
(oops… I break my own idiotic rule, I used “I” in this blog)
I’m sorry mom, sorry that I make you worry. I’ll take care of myself and to calm you a bit, I’ll sms you whenever I have spare time.
Sunday, June 8, 2008
3 weeks holidays has passed.
My missions have finally completed.
What are them?
What are them?
- To buy myself another pair of sport shoe. Why getting another one while the old one still good? This is because the old one required in too many functions that I thought it might be dirty for me to wear into class. My feeling was deeply attacked by someone the night before I went to buy, my mind and body were numb I guess that’s the reason that I could have strange ‘yong qi’ to buy this shoe.
- Second is to change my spectacle. Why? I got a new spec. last December, why change it after 6 months? My power has obviously increased. But the power for the December’s spec. somehow never increased to that extent that I can see slides in my class. Then why ain’t you changed/complained to the shop? Because I didn’t used it that often during 3 months holidays. So, I didn’t realize. In fact, when I first put it on in
- Lol. I’m on my way go back to KL from this last and 3rd times back to Melaka. What is the new thing I bought back today? Camera!! Panasonic Lumic DMC-TZ5/TZ15. This is my last aim. I supposed to buy this using my own money. But my mother said she wanted to sponsor me~ lol~ Thanks to her that I could get this by now. If wasn’t her, I probably … the minimum time I need to accumulate that much of money is until December. Which probably will by my present this year?
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Last day in Gombak Hospital!
early in the morning, sniff~~ good n clean air~
Red myvi is always the early bird~ lol~ punctuality is important lo!
Thanks to Siew May who drives us there n back in these 3days~~
(give a round of applause~)
Bilik Ceramah: 2nd floor, pediatric wad. Students meeting place.
Today was bored~ and tired~
Clerking~ at first, assigned to general wad. There were hmm... quite a number of patients...but ~ ~ they dun wished to talk~ ~ swt~
Shift back to outpatient wad lo~ met this women whom son was studied 2 years medicine course in UPM then stopped and became a lecturer and now doing his master or don't know what in Liverpool. She was cooperative, nice patient. She complained about sore throat, rhinitis, R lower neck pain.
After taking hx, next destination was tea break at mamak opposite to hospital~ nice roti telor with delicious kari~ but nv drink milo, frens were complained about that~ teh tarik too sweet~
9.40am-- except for MQ'car pool, all of us went to museum Orang Asli. Entrance is free and it just opposite the hospital.
10am-- went back to Hospital lobby waiting to go next station--> Org Asli Kampung and 'waterfall'. About 15-25mins drive from the hospital.
Penghulu has already gone out when we reached. So, we had to visit his herb garden ourselve.
Then, Dr.Sassi walked us to the so called 'waterfall'. Along the way, we saw wooden houses, a small river~ then reached the second river. Dr.Sassi asked us to wait there~ wondering y?..hmm... thinking probably need to cross it also~ who knows that's the 'waterfall' she was talking~ oops~ it just a river with a faster water current and deeper ~ hmm.... nvm, it makes those city ppl v v v happy and the leeches are happy too~4 leeches got their stomach full after we visited the place~ lol~ kesian~
(siew may and li xian wearing their shoes after they crossed the first river)
Red myvi is always the early bird~ lol~ punctuality is important lo!
Thanks to Siew May who drives us there n back in these 3days~~
(give a round of applause~)
Bilik Ceramah: 2nd floor, pediatric wad. Students meeting place.
Today was bored~ and tired~
Clerking~ at first, assigned to general wad. There were hmm... quite a number of patients...but ~ ~ they dun wished to talk~ ~ swt~
Shift back to outpatient wad lo~ met this women whom son was studied 2 years medicine course in UPM then stopped and became a lecturer and now doing his master or don't know what in Liverpool. She was cooperative, nice patient. She complained about sore throat, rhinitis, R lower neck pain.
After taking hx, next destination was tea break at mamak opposite to hospital~ nice roti telor with delicious kari~ but nv drink milo, frens were complained about that~ teh tarik too sweet~
9.40am-- except for MQ'car pool, all of us went to museum Orang Asli. Entrance is free and it just opposite the hospital.
10am-- went back to Hospital lobby waiting to go next station--> Org Asli Kampung and 'waterfall'. About 15-25mins drive from the hospital.
Penghulu has already gone out when we reached. So, we had to visit his herb garden ourselve.
Then, Dr.Sassi walked us to the so called 'waterfall'. Along the way, we saw wooden houses, a small river~ then reached the second river. Dr.Sassi asked us to wait there~ wondering y?..hmm... thinking probably need to cross it also~ who knows that's the 'waterfall' she was talking~ oops~ it just a river with a faster water current and deeper ~ hmm.... nvm, it makes those city ppl v v v happy and the leeches are happy too~4 leeches got their stomach full after we visited the place~ lol~ kesian~
(siew may and li xian wearing their shoes after they crossed the first river)
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
2nd day in Gombak Hospital
Yesterday commander said mission today is to listen systolic murmur and learn CVS/CVA (couldn’t catch what he was trying to say, CVA is stroke, CVS is heart and vascular).
But who knows today was so bored. Arrived at hospital around 7.40am and waited for 15mins inside assembly room (located center of pediatric wad). Dr. Sassikala then came and the first group people all reached before the second group. Dr. Sassi then assigned us to the maternal wad and infectious wad. Four little soldiers first arrived at maternal wad- mission: CLERK!! 1 gynea and 1 obst. patients were resting, 2 delivered mama and their families were awake. Target aimed. *All internal wad patients are Orang Asli. Clerk one of the mama that had his baby delivered on 30th of May. She stayed in hospital was to deliver baby and w/o knowledge in repro, clerking process went on very unlikely. After left her bedside, she and her family packed to go do their child’s birth cert. Survival rate in maternal wad is pretty low, thus, decided to shift to infectious wad.
Infectious wad, there are TB and leprosy. Transmissible disease? Of course they are. U probably thinking protective glove, mask and isolation rooms. Unfortunately, not as what you’re thinking. None of our soldiers has barriers. According to Dr.Sassi, once TB patient on a week treatment, the patient will no longer be transmissible. There were around seven TB patients and 2 Leprosy. An old man was our target for TB, he told us it feels normal, only symptoms are cough and sweat. A young lady was our target for Leprosy (Hansen’s disease= Kusat in malay), her presenting symptom is patches on hands and feet.
Had breakfast.
Then, meeting room for Talk on Transmissible Diseases by Dr. Sheerema. Learnt bit tactic in ‘war’.
(Left: pictures of li xian, siew may and yap waiting in meeting room)
Then, had a small discussion with Dr.Sassi and ended at 12.30pm.
Wait a min, Where is our yesterday commander? Oops, separates group got the chance to meet him today~ sigh~ that’s y today was bored.
Yesterday night, had a small chat with a M207 friend, he ~ er ~ don’t know how to describe but just kinda forcing blogger to join track and field event. He joins 2.2m road relay, v’ball and football but not athletics, then why he insists blogger in joining? I asked, but the answer was “I don’t care…lol” and then he moved away before blogger got chance to fight back. What does it means? It has been a long time since my last 100m run (form 1 was the last athletics run; form 2-5 just ran for fun). Blogger never serious in 100m run b/c it is stress during the process. So, final decision was not to join.
But the next morning, Siew May gave a reminder that 2008 is the last year M107 joins IMU cup. So, it gives blogger the courage to join. Thus, the total is blogger will be joining 4-5 events this year~ God bless me~ ankle please heal completely on time for blogger to perform.
Monday, June 2, 2008
Hospital Gombak trip (2nd til 4th of June 08')
Last group to go this hospital. Hence, comments bout this place are already in the air made by other groups. “Boring…”, “go there early, come back also early…”, “wasting time…”, all these negative comments gave a very negative feeling at the beginning.
Briefly about Hospital Gombak, it is currently the only Hospital in the world treating only aboriginal people (Orang Asli). Dr.Sheerenam (can’t remember exact spelling), public health specialist given us a talk before clerking patients. She emphasized on this hospital isn’t under the ministry of health but under ministry of aborigine (Jabatan Hal Ehwal Orang Asli- JHEOA). This hospital was originally started at Pahang around 1930-1950 by this English guy- Dr. Bourton. The most significant difference about this hospital and others is that they are searching for Orang Asli Patients to give treatment. Patients like us, go hospital without being invited by health workers. They actually go to their kampong fetching them out and then supply them with food and treatment and send them back home.
Ques: how many aborigines in peninsular
Around 150,000. 1.5 or 15 or 0.15% of the population in
Ques: where do they live?
It is divided into 3 types: interior, fringes and urban type. Interior are places where helicopters are required to access, fringes places only allowed 4-wheel-drive cars to go in. At the beginning, they were using the Air Force big huge helicopters, but because of availability usage, they bought a small private helicopter located in Terminal 3, Ampang, for access. If I’m not wrong, every year RM900,000 is paid into this helicopter.
Aborigine people is like that, they will never come out and see doctor when they are sick, only when they are very ill and if only it is accessible, they will come to this hospital. This is the reason why they need to search for them and take care of their health. *Beware, it is not only the patient who come out, everyone in the family will follow if one of them sick.* so, the third difference about this hospital is transition wad, place for their family members to stay.
Ques: Do they pay for everything?
Tricky. In private as well as government hospitals, we paid for screening, consultant fees, medicine, surgery, and hospital stay, basically everything. About 77% of orang asli are self-employed, they hunt things for survival, income of them are basically less than our poor people, which is
Ques: what are the most common communicable diseases?
Malaria, Leprosy (19.3 out of 100,000 people) and TB (103 out of 100,000 people). However, due to epidemiological transition, non-communicable diseases like DM, HTN and obesity strike them. Altogether, they have this double attack.
It took Von Vee 37mins from Vista Komenwel B to Hospital Gombak, which is farther than Klang Gate. First impression to this hospital wasn’t that bad as the rumors in the air. It’s quite clean compared to Hospital Seremban, probably because Serembam is congested with patients. The air was fresh and cleans on my first step out of Siew May’s car. While waiting for our doctor and other group members, general inspection around this hospital was done. This
And then the last guy with unexplained dizziness and headache for 3 months had a week stay in this hospital because were suspected to have dengue fever, discharged but the headache yet gone. Couldn’t figure out the cause of this. ‘Commander’ suspected it would be anemia. If it is the case, then why it was not diagnosed at the time they check for dengue by pricking the patient?
During our discussion, we talked bout DM (5 main symptoms: vision, polyuria, thirsty, bleed easily, malaise). Old people with general malaise are to be suspect with DM, told by ‘commander’. What is normal glucose level then? 4.2 to 6.2 but this old male had 7.9 value, 3 and half hours after breakfast. Then, commander also mentioned that ACEI is the first choice for HTN.
Discussed also about differentiation between dengue and malaria, scabies, gout, OA, RA…
Mission completed and left hospital around 1pm.
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Trip back Melaka.
Muar, JB 28-5-08, 9.32am
On my way back to Kuala Lumpur from Muar.
[Fahrenheit- 1个人流浪]
1个人流浪, I was listening to this song when I walked back from MAS office to have my one year Adelaide ticket changed to return on the next day. Sad… but it sings out my feeling that moment.
Ok, where am I? Er… Sungai Mati, heading towards Tangkak toll house.
This trip back to Melaka was actually to attend my dearest Melaka friends’ gathering 3rounds “party”. “3 rounds”, I was shocked also, I was only told to eat Ikan bakar at Alai, after that, they brought me to Bunga Raya to eat roadside seashells and ‘wu xiang’. It was my first time to this stall. Er… I didn’t try the seashells, but their business is really good, should be delicious i guess. Unfortunately, it just not the food I will want to try.
KerJia came out with this weird and healthy sentense: “seashells can transmit hepatitis”. Oops~~ hepatitis… what is that? Inflammation of liver~ hoho~ but what type of hepatitis? There r many types: A til Z. *L hand cover my mouth* Did I just said til Z? haha~ currently until F only, if not mistaken, but the main types are A-D la. Then unclean seashell consumption can cause which type? What I got from my friend, Dingy and internet research is Hepatitis A. (please leave any comments if u think I’m wrong) What is Hep A? It is caused by Picornavirus (smallest RNA virus) and will end up to either mild symptoms or fast die die. Don’t worry, only 1-2% will fast die die. Never progress to liver cancer or chronic hepatitis. =p what are the mild symptoms? yellowish skin, eyes.. hoho, “yellow man”, fever, nausea, vomiting.
[Jay-深蓝色的情书] Everyone of us has a big belly now, hence we decided to go for a walk. Where we went? We went to Melaka’s jetty. Where is it? At Melaka Raya, behind Holidays Inn, where GoGo Karaoke located. Took some pictures, had nice chats then we ended our gathering around 11.15pm. Time flies, it took me few minutes to recognize some of them. Although I was really exhausted b/c I didn’t have rest for >14hours, but I’m glad to meet them. Lot of thanks to the organizer, Sinn Rui. I would want to hug you if I wasn’t that tired. Hoho~ God bless to everyone of us~ Good luck to everyone of you.
The next day, early in the morning, I was pulled to Muar. What I did in Muar? Traveling? No way. I hate this place. After taken my Marie Claire eyewear, I did some stupid readings, chit chatting, watched House MD. Sea cucumber, according to traditional Chinese medicine, is a really good food. What so good about this ‘geli’ thing? It has high protein content (apart from egg white), low fats and cholesterol, contains chondriotin sulfate that is similar to medicine treating OA (osteoarthritis), it reduces pain, and then it moistens dryness also to prevent/ treat constipation and diarrhea. Isn’t it diarrhea is too wet? Haha~ it probably maintains the fluidity. (Comments for additional info are welcome)
One thing that spoiled this trip is my mom annoyed me with my studies. She probably thinks I keep going out with friends for movies. In fact, I did. I know what her worry is. To comfort her, I think I gotta stay in house like an anti-social for the coming 3weeks. I can do it, can’t I? (Exclude exercise)
On my way back to Kuala Lumpur from Muar.
[Fahrenheit- 1个人流浪]
1个人流浪, I was listening to this song when I walked back from MAS office to have my one year Adelaide ticket changed to return on the next day. Sad… but it sings out my feeling that moment.
Ok, where am I? Er… Sungai Mati, heading towards Tangkak toll house.
This trip back to Melaka was actually to attend my dearest Melaka friends’ gathering 3rounds “party”. “3 rounds”, I was shocked also, I was only told to eat Ikan bakar at Alai, after that, they brought me to Bunga Raya to eat roadside seashells and ‘wu xiang’. It was my first time to this stall. Er… I didn’t try the seashells, but their business is really good, should be delicious i guess. Unfortunately, it just not the food I will want to try.
KerJia came out with this weird and healthy sentense: “seashells can transmit hepatitis”. Oops~~ hepatitis… what is that? Inflammation of liver~ hoho~ but what type of hepatitis? There r many types: A til Z. *L hand cover my mouth* Did I just said til Z? haha~ currently until F only, if not mistaken, but the main types are A-D la. Then unclean seashell consumption can cause which type? What I got from my friend, Dingy and internet research is Hepatitis A. (please leave any comments if u think I’m wrong) What is Hep A? It is caused by Picornavirus (smallest RNA virus) and will end up to either mild symptoms or fast die die. Don’t worry, only 1-2% will fast die die. Never progress to liver cancer or chronic hepatitis. =p what are the mild symptoms? yellowish skin, eyes.. hoho, “yellow man”, fever, nausea, vomiting.
[Jay-深蓝色的情书] Everyone of us has a big belly now, hence we decided to go for a walk. Where we went? We went to Melaka’s jetty. Where is it? At Melaka Raya, behind Holidays Inn, where GoGo Karaoke located. Took some pictures, had nice chats then we ended our gathering around 11.15pm. Time flies, it took me few minutes to recognize some of them. Although I was really exhausted b/c I didn’t have rest for >14hours, but I’m glad to meet them. Lot of thanks to the organizer, Sinn Rui. I would want to hug you if I wasn’t that tired. Hoho~ God bless to everyone of us~ Good luck to everyone of you.
The next day, early in the morning, I was pulled to Muar. What I did in Muar? Traveling? No way. I hate this place. After taken my Marie Claire eyewear, I did some stupid readings, chit chatting, watched House MD. Sea cucumber, according to traditional Chinese medicine, is a really good food. What so good about this ‘geli’ thing? It has high protein content (apart from egg white), low fats and cholesterol, contains chondriotin sulfate that is similar to medicine treating OA (osteoarthritis), it reduces pain, and then it moistens dryness also to prevent/ treat constipation and diarrhea. Isn’t it diarrhea is too wet? Haha~ it probably maintains the fluidity. (Comments for additional info are welcome)
One thing that spoiled this trip is my mom annoyed me with my studies. She probably thinks I keep going out with friends for movies. In fact, I did. I know what her worry is. To comfort her, I think I gotta stay in house like an anti-social for the coming 3weeks. I can do it, can’t I? (Exclude exercise)
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Strive for Happiness.
Muar, JB, Tues, 27-5-08. [Howie Day- She Says]
Particularly liked this article extracted from Reader Digest by Dianne Hales.
Particularly liked this article extracted from Reader Digest by Dianne Hales.
A smile doesn’t cost anything and may do you good, so why not grin?
"It’s tricky that most people assume that external things like bigger house, better job, winning lottery ticket will actually brighten our lives. While these things will only bring temporary delight, the thrill invariably fades."
"Performing 5 acts of kindness on one day yielded a significant increase in well-being, while acts of kindness on different days didn’t. To sustain happiness, you have to make effort and commitment everyday for the rest of your life."
"Still, not everyone is sold on the power of positive thinking, if you forced people to cope in a way that don’t fit the nature, it do harm. When someone’s in pain over the loss of something, telling them to be more optimistic and look on the bright side just adds insult to the injury. The path to contentment depends on finding the coping strategy that suits you best, even if that means expressing anger or sadness along the way."
[jolin Tsai- let's move it] YL not a good talker, not good in giving consolation. But my ears always there to listen. (hmm...not on exam eve) As a med student, in BS (behavioral science) subject we r required to console angry, crying, any type of emotional pt. Mine session will be on next week, still haven't figure out how to console crying pt. Thinking if my friend cries in front of me, what can/should i do?? Hmm... I might get her/him tissues, listen to her/his complaints, keep quiet cause i have no idea what to say... any idea how to do ?
[Colbie Caillat-bubbly]"I realized that by working hard to keep a lighter tone, by taking time to be silly, to laugh more, to sing every morning, I managed to bring about deeper changes in myself- more loving and considerate feelings and actions. That’s why it’s a duty to be happy. When I take the steps that will make me happier, I’m far better able to make other people happier too."
Way to make yourself happy:- Making a list of things you’re grateful can do for your happiness. Family, my parents would bring me to my 2nd home whenever we r free, mom cook for us, cares so much that SOMETIMES i just feel uncomfortable when she keep asking me to study (I know what i'm doing), others, well, i'm very happy that i have them. Friends, over 13 friends at B1 (6th, 10th, 19th and 21st floor), bkt jalil, we are cheerful team. So many ppl, misunderstandings inevitable, but never end up with cancer stage. I was so happy that you guys really woke up at 3.30am on 26th April went to climb Klang Gate with me! Thanks~oh~ we had fun. so sweet. Melaka friends~ hardly we keep in touch but when i called them, they never turn me down. Hoho~we had good time during secondary sch, din we? Volleyball for 5 yrs~ played like hell, 3-5x/week, 2-3hours each time. I like that!
- “Humour is like salt on meat” it amplifies everything. Exercise, basketball, badminton, or jogging, i leave everything behind me during exercise. It helps in turning my frown emo face to happy most of the time, except things that happened last few weeks. I was so down even when i closed my eyes. Still not fully recover yet. But what i know is i don't hate you, i must say that i didn't think you are bitch. It just weird, hurt. Friends asking not to think bout what she says, but as mentioned above it only makes things worse, so it wasn't helpful, dude, i would prefer you guys cheer me up by playing basketball with me or just keep silent. It takes time for lesion to heal, unpredicted duration of time, because the blog keeps appearing in my mind. Post recover syndrome: particularly sensitive. To what? Er... i have no idea, just very sensitive. I am at the stage now! Special thanks to Marissa, woon kheng, ker jia, khang ning, Michelle, agnes, siew ting and sharon. They tried so hard to cheer me.. hoho~ thanks~
- Do something good. Now only i realized that sometimes, it is skeptical movements. As some people, don't really like to be treated or how can i say... not that sociable or inapproachable. I don't know, their way to live, no comment and respect them. And to some, it can amplify to extreme stage... which one can hardly handle it. But it always do good! Think positively, everyone likes to be treated good. And I personally like to play with my friend. I still remember in the unprepared interview before entering IMU. They asked me why I wanna be dr. I don't remember the exact answered but it something like this "I like to help people, It amplify my happiness when i see them smile at me/ got the helped they wanted."
- Seize the moment. Go ahead, and be happy. When it's time to laugh, laugh it as loud as possible. But when time to be serious, do not LOL cause u'll look like clown. That's what i learn from Dr. Htin Aung. This is still in learning process, as it is a challenge for me to control my dirty mind.
- You might be feeling like your life right now is downhill slope, but if you stop and assess it honestly, you’ll see you actually have it pretty good. If not,
- Think back to when you had time for creative expression. Joyful expression can bring happiness. Dare to Laugh out Loud? hoho~ Nv dare me this! U'll regret!
- Escape to your stress-free zone. I always choose seaside, blue indicate peace and calm to me.
- Think memorable, not material. Even the Benz SLR/ Lambo will become routine over time, on the other hand, memory of good time with family and friends will last forever. Think about it!
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