IMU life ended.

2.5 years of Med course in IMU has ended at 29th May 2009.
It started at end of February 2007. 3 day after i rushed back from Adelaide.

Things going very harsh and tired at first. I did not stick to anyone exactly the same as how i lived in Sunway. After classes, went back home and study... Pek chek... nap... eat little... study till late... sleep... the same went on until 3weeks before ICA for sem 1. The first time i took lrt and went to LowYat with my housemate, Dino Zai. I scored well in sem 1.

Sem 2 we moved from block B1 to block B tower. 19th floor and 6. I took master bedroom. Sem 2 was a big mess as i think i was too tension with those patho, pharmco, bac, virus... many more. Sem 2 was a intensive semester. Everything is so alien and you are given little time to absorb them. Some actually gave up and withdraw from the course in this sem. In the end, i scored badly and i emo.

After i passed my EOS 2, entering sem 3, i allowed myself to relax a little because my sis said that it's not worth doing that in uni life. Uni life shouldn't be like that. So, I went to play basketball, badminton with my friends. Went out celebrate people birthdays. However, i still restricted myself from too many outings. I passed EOS 3.

Sem 4. Seniors said sem 4 is a honey-moon semester as there is no End of Semester exam. So, I was very relax. I joined IMU cup for basketball, badminton and volleyball. Practices everyday earlier in the morning. Didn't study much as i used to be. Exhausted but really fun and had a memorable life. I got to know many friends that i wasn't close with. They are fun n hardworking people! I enjoyed sem 4 a lots! Though i exercise A LOTS but my weight stayed intact. *did not win any medals though! hehe... a bit upset but i gained more than i lost*. After IMU cup, I mugged up all my notes and i passed ICA.

There was only a short term of holiday to Sem 5. Sem 5 was a horrible semester. In sem 5, we have 2 big systems to cover- MSK n CNS. and 1 bored course- Com Med. Apart from the heavy work load, we still need to cover everything from the previous semesters. CVS, respi, haemato, git, renal, repro, endo, cns and msk, total of 9 systems with mountains like notes. Because of that, i had no exercise, lotsa maggies n fast foods, sleep-study, glued my butt in my red chair/ library chairs. Very stressful. Whatever, I survived through it.
Exam was 4 days. After first day, strength dropped until baseline. Because of MEQ!
2nd day was OSPE. Someone told the afternoon group that it was sup sup sui easy easy easy one. Then i went in happily and started with anatomy question. After 4 questions, i lost my interests already. Because I couldn't recall! There is hell lots of things and i couldn't recall. Frustrated. Some more, don't know who that 2 lecturers were. Both of them chatting in our exam hall and everyone could hear it. Damn it!
3rd day OSCE, i did very badly. Didn't know how to read ecg, simply crap. While i was doing fundoscope, someone shaked her head, made me more sad.
4th day OSCE, no more energy to fight. Just went in and finished whatever there.
Right after my exam, i was "kidnapped" by liyen to mid valley because abel n agnes asked them to bring me to mid valley and then double a will go with me to bangsar meet marissa. Until i reached The garden, Marissa only told me that double A not goin to bangsar anymore and i decided just to stick to si ling's gang to watch my 3rd time of X-men and supper with chui munn.

Learnt many things from books and also life. Grow up a bit. Hair longer a bit. Height Static.
Met a lotsa friends. All are very sweet and funny people! *Bad tragedies were inevitable, but not wishing to mention anymore*

Dislike

There is this gal who always abuse the word 'sorry'. Is either she do not know the true meaning of it or she is acting in front of people. This is freaking me out. I'm out of her apologized things. That is not a true apology from her heart, that is just a habit of her. Crazy b***#.

Crazy shopping day

With my ex-housemate, michelle we had this crazy shopping war at bangsar. Then later on, agnes asked us to go dingy's birthday but too far and traffic will be horrible that time, so, we decided to go mid valley watch movie. Upon reached there, agnes and abel called and forced us to go AGAIN. Horrible... After finished my shopping, we took another taxi to one U. As we were told previously is One u. Mana tau, while we were looking for red box inside one u, they told us is THE CURVE! horrible... If michelle wasn't there, i guess i'll take another taxi and go back home. So terrible... another taxi and we went to the curve. Haiz...

Sing k until 3 in the morning.

感言

I should be sleeping by now. But something strike my attention and i started to read about MS.

MS is a disease that i hate to read because there is no definite cause to it. It could be due to autoimmune or genetic or environment or infection or anything. Damage is done to our white matter in CNS. inflammation also play a cause here, entering through BBB they could attack 'foreign cells' perceived by them. Symptoms varies from sensory deficit, motor deficit to optic neuritis in which you will lost your vision. (vision loss is permanent!) To be dated, there is no cure. Treatment is given to delay attack, reduce number of attacks and symptomatic relief.
Theory (phase 1) can only teach you so much. What you feel after reading this paragraph?
My answer is: Nothing, no feeling. In phase 1, this piece of info will only benefit with it comes to exam, not for real life. (quotes from IMU's lectures.) In Phase 2, you will need to apply them onto real patients. This is when the sad and heart-breaking parts come around medical students.

"Thing" that strike my attention did show little about how it is living with MS. I must say that, theory is nothing but info, you really have to see it to get everything into your brain. You will never forget it. MS in real, is a devastating disease, sufferers in their early stage are of no different from normal people. Different people go through the disease differently. No matter how much rest you get, you still feel tired. 1 mile walk, you feel like you going to falls. Little feather could makes you feel like a thousand pound. Numbness. Dizziness.

Corticosteroid is given to prevent further attack and in severe exacerbation course. Others like mitoxantrone, glatiramer acetate, interferon beta 1a and 1b, natalizumab.
Clinical trial drug (3rd phase): Campath 1H (alemtuzumab) caught my attention when i viewed youtube.com. this is a strong drug with some side effects like reduce platelet count and reduce thyroid function.

IF this clinical drug is useful in reverse MS, people having MS now will miss the chance to receive this treatment lo. I understand it is no right in putting clinical trial's drug as 2nd line of treatment when it is still experimenting. Just have this inside words that i need to say. what if it works and people currently cannot received the treatment, will their family members get really upset??

Sigh. God Bless.

Sherlock Holmes 24th Dec 2009.

The great frictional character-- Sherlock Holmes has finally come 'alive'! haha...
I haven't read their novels. The first time i ever heard of this name was during M107 Selective for forensic science group sketch presentations, which was acted by Hong mun and Abel.
After I went through quickly about sherlock holmes in wikipedia, it raised by interest into reading these novels, though i'm not very interested in detective kind of story. What interest me was the movie, to be honest. haha....
Stay tune...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tOr4i-wbH-M

IMU M107

Now, what I'm going to show you is M107. What does M107 means? It means Medicine course first batch in the year 2007.
Initially there were about 213 students. Now it left 165. Exam is the major contributor to the number of students lost. Other factors like stress, offered by other Uni or gone crazy (haha, last one bluffing only)

Upgrade Camera.

I'm thinking to get myself a SLR type of camera. Upgrading my current Panasonic Lumix TZ-5 which is an amazing digital camera. However, I need a better quality of photo, so I'm thinking to upgrade it!
I have some options here, suggestions are welcomed. Thanks.

1. Nikon D5000- 12.3mp, 2.7" LCD that can be twisted to different angles. LowYat offers me 2880 for the body and the lens. ~ 610g with battery. ISO: 200 till 3200 (reach up to 6400)
19 Scene Modes

2. Canon EOS 500D: 520g. ISO 3200 (expandable up to 12800). Aperture value: F1.0 - F91 (0.3 EV steps). Will cost around RM3663.

Pictures post: first is my cactus.

24th Feb: few days old.


24th May: it grows 3cm up. Elongated straight head on top of the parent's head. Like a penis, said my housemate, Dino.

Cactus with a sunset background.

make a plan, set a goal, work towards it, but every now and then, looks around, drink it in, cause this is it, it might all be gone tomorrow.

I am depressed...

what am I doing here?
Second day of EOS5... every paper is depressing and i have lost all my confidence...
9 systems, CVS, respi, haemato, git, endo, repro, renal, msk, cns... together like a mountain-like papers of notes... And i need to remember...
I am depressed because i tried all the best i can to remember them, but i end up losing them... I'm a loser.


Why am i risking my life here?
I am very unhealthy. I drink coffee like drinking water, it is my breakfast, my dinner and sometime my lunch... there are still time where i dun even eat, because i know once i eat, my blood will pool down my stomach and i will feel sleepy.. i know also that i cannot effort to lose any seconds without study my notes, cause i need to remember them...
I am stress. We are human, i know i can't study every seconds, but i need to. So, when i reached the point where i can't study anymore, i will feel the guilt inside of me...
I am a negative med student.
I am tired. After every paper, i need to force myself to sleep, because i need to calm my mind from the overactivity of adrenaline and seratonin in my mind, i need to continue to prepare myself for the next day exam and i dun have enough time. I am tired.
I have no stimulus.
I am zero.

Why am i choosing this course?
Because i want to give people joy. No pain no disease.


"studying medicine is like pregnancy, people see the outcome but not knowing how many attempt we made"